I just don't understand

I've been working out a lot lately, and have started eating healthier, and always try to eat breakfast, and somehow, instead of losing weight, I'm putting more on. Can someone please explain that to me? It's been 3 weeks now and I'm just bloating up and none of it makes sense.

It's really upsetting to know you're putting on weight and doing nothing to prevent it. It's even more upsetting when you're trying really hard to get back in shape and all you see are negative results.

Now, what's even worse than that is, the fact that fall is pretty much here (today's high is 56F) and I don't fit into any of my fall/winter clothes! I just want to cry!!! I have an event tonight I've been organizing for the past 2 weeks and I have nothing to wear. Literally though. This isn't all just in vain. I'm actually heading out to buy an outfit right now, 2 hours before my party. If I had any self esteem left, it's pretty much gone now.

Other updates? School still sucks the life out of me. I still love my physics professor. My house is still dirty. I did the laundry today. I've been working really hard in chemistry. Tomorrow my mom's roommate is helping me with some of it actually. What else? Anthony's off to Atlantic City tomorrow for his college buddy's bachelor party. Am I jealous? A little bit. Does he deserve some guy time away from me? Absolutely.

Anyway though, I really just want to crawl under a rock and never leave my house again. Hope your Friday's better than mine.

XOXO,

Marge