October

Blah, blah, love this month, blah, blah, blah.
I don't think we're going apple picking this year because our schedule is really packed. This weekend we have a wedding, next weekend I have my birthday celebration with Anthony's family, karaoke with the girls, and we're hosting football Sunday, then the following weekend we have my birthday getaway, and we're closing the month off with birthday celebrations with my family and my best friends... I'm a busy bee!
My mom really wanted to throw me a birthday party this year, and I know she's upset I don't want her to, but I just want her to understand that I really appreciate the thought and that it means a lot to me... The reality of it is, I just don't have enough friends. I can count on one hand how many real friends I have, and to be honest, I don't think it's worth throwing a party where only 5 of my friends are present. Sure, we can invite Anthony's friends, and they too are my friends, but it really just isn't the same.
I finally took my chemistry exam today! I can't tell you how good it feels to have it out of the way. It feels like a heavy weight has been lift off my shoulders. I think I did okay. Average, if you may. I definitely passed, but I know I got a some of the questions wrong. I didn't expect an A though, not for this class at least. I know it's very challenging for me, and to have understood chapters 11 and 12 like the back of my hand is definitely a good feeling.
I'm a little bit scared I completely abandoned my 4 other classes though... I really need to start catching up otherwise I'm screwed for the remainder of this semester.
I finally get to go back to the gym next week... This makes me so happy, considering the fact I don't fit into anything anymore! I'm done hating that about myself though... I'm actually trying this reversed psychology where I say, "Oh hey, my ass doesn't fit into these jeans? No problem, I love it actually!" I mean, I keep telling myself how much I hate my body and it just continues to get worse, so maybe this will encourage my body to go the opposite direction. Who knows, right?
Here's something I hate about tumblr. I left blogger once I realized everybody headed over there, and then I realized nobody actually writes on these blogs. All they do is post and re-post pictures of half naked girls, stupid videos, dumb quotes and sex scenes all over their pages. Nobody posts about anything truly meaningful, and their pages look completely bipolar. One second there's a picture of a couple making out, and the next, there's a picture of a starving African child. No, thank you. I like people who write. I like people who take time in expressing themselves.
This is why I chose to come back to blogger -- it's more down to earth. I tried to tumble (or whatever) the other day, and it was okay at first, then it was little fun, then it meant absolutely nothing to me... Now, over here, I enjoy writing about different things and sharing my thoughts, and I also enjoy when friends and family tell me they read my blog and that they enjoyed it. I got lots of hits last month, so I suppose I'm no longer writing for myself. There are actual readers. I just wish they'd contribute a little bit, ask questions, make this page more interactive...
That's all for today...
XOXO,
Marge