Not a bad week after all

Just to update you on what's been going on since my last post: I no longer feel like total crap. The weekend is almost here, which means I will be going to Salem very soon, and I think I did well on both tests I took this week. I know I totally aced my C++ exam, but I have a very good feeling I will be happy with whatever grade I get from my Linear Algebra test. My only issue was that I couldn't remember how to write my answers the way that he likes them... There's only so much I can do though. I'm still a little stressed over my Physics exam, I can't wait till that's over with. Although, to be honest, it would mean that my Chemistry test is around the corner again. This semester is killing me!
I need a vacation that lasts 6 months after this semester is done. Which won't be happening. Matter of fact, I don't think I'll have that long of a break till maybe the day I retire. It's a bit upsetting, but I'll get over it.
XOXO,
Marge

Long time no see

I'm tired, frustrated, stressed out, sad, and I don't know what else... As you can see, things are not going too well.
I took a Differentials test last Thursday and it was bad! I'm telling myself not to stress out too much because it's only been one test, but that's not working out. We're already halfway through the semester, it's time to start worrying. I'm freaking out because my Physics exam is coming up and I haven't studied at all. I'm a little worried about my C++ exam later on this afternoon. I did well on the last one, but this one is a little tougher because I haven't been keeping up with the work. I got my Chemistry grade back (60% of it) and I did awful. I think that's what I'm mostly upset about. There are a lot of different ways to bring that grade back up, but that's not the point. The point is that I worked and studied super hard and it didn't pay off in the end. I completely abandoned my other courses because of this test and it wasn't even worth all of my effort. Now I have tons of more work that piled up in my other classes that I need to catch up with and not even a good grade to balance this bad situation out. Just shoot me now, please.
I do have some good news though. Friday we celebrated my birthday with Anthony's family. It was great, because I had a delicious dinner, a yummy cake, his parents got my Tiffany bracelet fixed and got me an extra charm as a birthday present, and Connor (ahem, Lauren) made me an awesome picture portrait with a photo of Connor and I in it. Couldn't have asked for anything more, both gifts were amazingly meaningful and made me a happy girl!
On Saturday, I went out to the city with the Reddit girls for karaoke. It was super fun, and I sang so much! On top of that, one of the girls got me a beautiful (and incredibly delicious) Mocha cake. It was the sweetest thing and made me so happy!
I invited 2 of the girls I met last September at our first Reddit gathering over on Sunday. It was a pretty mellow Sunday and nothing too special happened. I made some chocolate chip cookies, and I must admit, I've become quite the expert cookie-maker. I'm proud of myself. The Bears totally destroyed the Vikings, and that made my day! The Giants beat the Bills as well... That was a wonderful victory because the Bills have been doing so well. It was a close game, but we came on top in the end.
This concludes my weekend. This Friday we're finally going up to Salem, so I'm sure I'll have tons to share when I get back.
XOXO,
Marge

Meet Sally

Our friends Joe and Rachel got married yesterday. I'm so happy for them! I choked back a few tears the best I could, but after a few drinks, my insecurities got the best of me. Anthony and I took a picture together where I literally looked pregnant. It was terrible! I cried so much because it was really upsetting... I need to lose weight now! It's back to the gym tomorrow (finally) and no more junk food.

As you can see, we finally got a pumpkin! We went to a local business upstate and they had 4 stray kittens. The lady actually offered we take one home, but we really can't handle another cat right now. I named this pumpkin Sally and bought a decorating kit to give it some personality. I tried carving a pumpkin for the first time last year and I really didn't like it, so from here on out, I'm keeping it simple.

I think these are all the updates I have for now, I have tons of homework to do and lots of tests coming up... Pray for me!

XOXO,

Marge

October

Blah, blah, love this month, blah, blah, blah.
I don't think we're going apple picking this year because our schedule is really packed. This weekend we have a wedding, next weekend I have my birthday celebration with Anthony's family, karaoke with the girls, and we're hosting football Sunday, then the following weekend we have my birthday getaway, and we're closing the month off with birthday celebrations with my family and my best friends... I'm a busy bee!
My mom really wanted to throw me a birthday party this year, and I know she's upset I don't want her to, but I just want her to understand that I really appreciate the thought and that it means a lot to me... The reality of it is, I just don't have enough friends. I can count on one hand how many real friends I have, and to be honest, I don't think it's worth throwing a party where only 5 of my friends are present. Sure, we can invite Anthony's friends, and they too are my friends, but it really just isn't the same.
I finally took my chemistry exam today! I can't tell you how good it feels to have it out of the way. It feels like a heavy weight has been lift off my shoulders. I think I did okay. Average, if you may. I definitely passed, but I know I got a some of the questions wrong. I didn't expect an A though, not for this class at least. I know it's very challenging for me, and to have understood chapters 11 and 12 like the back of my hand is definitely a good feeling.
I'm a little bit scared I completely abandoned my 4 other classes though... I really need to start catching up otherwise I'm screwed for the remainder of this semester.
I finally get to go back to the gym next week... This makes me so happy, considering the fact I don't fit into anything anymore! I'm done hating that about myself though... I'm actually trying this reversed psychology where I say, "Oh hey, my ass doesn't fit into these jeans? No problem, I love it actually!" I mean, I keep telling myself how much I hate my body and it just continues to get worse, so maybe this will encourage my body to go the opposite direction. Who knows, right?
Here's something I hate about tumblr. I left blogger once I realized everybody headed over there, and then I realized nobody actually writes on these blogs. All they do is post and re-post pictures of half naked girls, stupid videos, dumb quotes and sex scenes all over their pages. Nobody posts about anything truly meaningful, and their pages look completely bipolar. One second there's a picture of a couple making out, and the next, there's a picture of a starving African child. No, thank you. I like people who write. I like people who take time in expressing themselves.
This is why I chose to come back to blogger -- it's more down to earth. I tried to tumble (or whatever) the other day, and it was okay at first, then it was little fun, then it meant absolutely nothing to me... Now, over here, I enjoy writing about different things and sharing my thoughts, and I also enjoy when friends and family tell me they read my blog and that they enjoyed it. I got lots of hits last month, so I suppose I'm no longer writing for myself. There are actual readers. I just wish they'd contribute a little bit, ask questions, make this page more interactive...
That's all for today...
XOXO,
Marge

Am I really that intimidating?

I'm 5' tall and still look like I'm 12 years old. However, it seems I have scared the bejesus out of my physics professor last night. He announced to the class today that for the first time in his career, he dreamed of one of his students. I was, of course, the lucky one. He said I went up to him and told him I had a question, but that I needed to discuss it with him in private. Then as I was about to ask him this question, I just freaked out completely and ripped the flesh off of his face with my bare hands. He said that he woke up and couldn't fall back asleep for quite a while. Hilarious, if you ask me. I love my professor though, so I don't want him to have that image of me now. He even gave me a new nickname. I forget what it is, I'll update this later. I feel like we've come closer together though! I know he won't be forgetting my face anytime soon...

What else is new? It's October! It's my month! So excited for all the activities! There aren't enough exclamation marks to express my excitement, actually! After this Thursday I will be able to relax a bit... Chemistry has taken over my life and it's all I think about. I dream about it, as a matter of fact. I've been dreaming about it every day since last Thursday. Make it stop, please!

I hope your October looks promising, too.

XOXO,

Marge